the bar exam is two weeks and one day away.
i am going to fail.
i don’t say this for sympathy, i ain’t fishin’ for well wishes, i need to vent. my anxiety is at astronomical levels and i just don’t see how it is possible to learn all this material in the next 15 days.
i’m angry because this exercise is stupid. the law is not practiced in a room of thousands of anxiety-riddled attorneys. the law is not practiced in a closed-book environment. being an effective attorney does not require you to know every nuance of every field of law. i have no desire to EVER be a transactional attorney, yet here i am, studying the UCC.
i’m angry because after three years of school “worth” (i use that term loosely) six figures of debt, we have to pay another $2500 to take a class teaching us how to take the bar.
i’m angry because this a pure example of economic protectionism and is a crock of shit. lots of smart people fail, lots of stupid people pass. that is not determinative of one’s ability to be a successful advocate for a client.
i’m angry because this is the first time in my entire life i think i might fail something that i’ve prepared for. and that’s the most terrifying thought i’ve ever had. i’ve been worried about exams before but nothing prepared me for this level of fear, anger, and anxiety.
god speed fellow barzamers. i hope none of you are feeling this way (but i know some of you are). i’ll see you on the other side (maybe).